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Wednesday, May 30, 2007

I AM Lesson 7




God is asking no less of us today than to believe He is sufficient to accomplish any and everything He could ever ask of us. He doesn't choose us because we are qualified, but because He wants to trust us with His Wonders. The thing about Wonders is that they aren't very wonderful if they do not originate from the ordinary. Let's explore this a bit in our Discussion.Discussion Questions:

1. How would you answer the questions, "Who Am I?"

A child of God. Emerging from the crashing waves, washed ashore, I have now found shelter in my Abba. Now I am learning that I can walk in my Lord.

I am no longer defined by the storms of my life. I am no longer defined by the darkness that prevails or the silence when I am all alone. When the skies hide its tiny specs of hope, I know there is something bigger behind that brings me a promise of tomorrow.

2. Have you ever been in a situation where you felt inadequate because of your lack of a 'tagline'?

all my life. Until I understood who I was in Christ. my tagline ... hmmm....My core believe was that I was "nonexistent". so I spent the rest of my life trying to prove that I was real, that I existed. I can say that it began to take its toll on me and I became very weary. Through a wonderful Mentor, I learned who I really was.


Now I hate to really refer to my tagline because it could be a Nurse, Counselor, Mom, Wife... Director,..choir member... .many things... but that really doesn't define me ... doesn't it...because at one time, I lived out of those things... and I don't want to anymore...

I live out of Christ first, and then I am a Wife, mom,,, and so on...

I hope I understood that right...


3. Do you have skills or position that you believe God could use mightily if only He would?

I have learned over the past several years that I am all God needs to use me. I just have to be available. Have I been ready before now? YES.. has He been using me? YES...,,, is there a bigger plan? YES....there has been such an unrest within my soul, right now. A stirring. And I have felt it.... God and I have traveled roads together....bumpy ones at that...... and now I sit and listen and wait. The waiting.... in the desert.. has been long... some times it gets very hard... as I am not a patient person...so this is a lesson in itself.... but I am ok.. because I am now seeing God all over my life and the direction it is taking.....

I wish I could post a sign that says ""IN PROGRESS"



4. Have you ever lost a position or station in life you believe could have 'helped God out' with something He has asked you to do? If you haven't lost out, do you perhaps feel you have to gain this in order to be useful to the Kingdom?

First,,,, I don't think I can ever "help God out"... I think He is going to get the job down with or without me...

now... to be useful in the kingdom? Guys.. He is going to use us ready or not. (a little different from free choice)...But I would like to say I was willing... ready.... open... prayerful.... and I am working towards that.... I'm not going to say it is always easy... because I like jumping back to my comfort zone sometimes... but that isn't always best.. actually it is sometimes horrible....coming from a control freak...

5. How are you with your dialogue vs. doubt conversations with God? Which does God hear most from you?

I talk ALL the time with God... I am surprised I have not had a visit from the guys in the little white coats... because I talk out loud... but also privately... in my private places... my hammock, the bathroom, study, my special chair.. car....while walking...my office...

and God and I do get down to business...no sugar coating it.. it's real...God, I'm upset today....Thank you so much for.... I love you and .... I'm scared... I am anxious and I know you say not to be...

6. Do you believe God's Wonders become more wonderful if they originate in the ordinary? Any Scripture references come to mind?

I always say that the miracles are in the small things.. not always the big things... I tell God that I can't wait to see what He has in store for me each day.. that my story is like reading a book... each moment is like turning the pages... there are tiny miracles all through the day...if we just look for them...





and the most recent was my dad calling me and telling me about his relationship with Jesus....you have no idea how long I have prayed for this.....



we sometimes miss them looking for the big ones...
"He performs astonishing miracles in heaven and on earth" (Daniel 6:26) THe good news.. is.. the miracles will go on forever.....


If you want to do this study go over to Lisa's Blog ... it's wonderful...
Blessings on your week!




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Tuesday, May 29, 2007

Sweet Dreams




Nise from Thus Far The Lord Has Helped Me tagged me recently after she was recently tagged in a most unusual meme but one that I am really excited about. One where we get to share our dreams and / or belief's--in which we live completely abandoned in our hopes and dreams with our Abba. So here it goes: What are your dreams? Not things that God has promised you, but things you dream about or things that you whisper in His ear. What are you believing God for? Be bold, Be Honest, Be courageous!

I'm believing God to keep my children in His reach even if it means taking them through brokenness to bring them back. That they will have a very intimate relationship with Him.

I am boldly praying for my children's spouse's to be Christians and to love my children like I love them and as Christ loves them.

I'm believing God for the family legacy of addiction coming to an end forever (as you Nise)

I'm believing God for peace in my career - a lot going on at work.

I'm believing God for complete healing of my dad.

I'm believing God for my mom's salvation

I dream of being debt free

I dream of losing 25lbs and keeping it off for the rest of my life and being in better shape. Treating my body as God's temple.

I dream of being a better caretaker in our home.

I dream of NOT being so darn full of pride....

I dream of being humble...

I dream of being what God made me to be

What are you believing God for, what are your dreams? I tag
Sharon, Denise, Linda, Dori and Gretchen ...and others I tag along the way.. smile

I can't wait to hear your dreams girls

Sweet Dreams.....


THINGS AREN'T ALWAYS AS THEY SEEM




"...faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love." (1 Corinthians 13:13)

When I was young, I remember having a young cousin that was severely mentally challenged. When we went to visit the family, I would stand by her and listen to her growl and yell at me. Her mom would explain that she was trying to express her love but it came out in a different way than ours. Is that not beautiful?!

As I have grown up and come upon someone with a disability I begin to wonder how they are expressing their love. I may catch myself looking their way for moments that would be defined -- too long. Maybe misinterpreted as "staring" or being "rude" if I am not careful. I could go back to that time as a child and wonder how this precious child of God is trying to speak. What is their language of love. How can I speak back, that I love them too. That God loves them. That they are so very special.

Not every time should I be expected to do that. That sometimes silence is ok. As they were given their own guardian angels. I may silently pray. I may engage in a beautiful conversation. Each situation will be different…. I just have to listen to my Abba's call.

One thing life has taught me….. Is it is not those with a disability that are disabled….. It is us around them….. We are challenged in our daily living.. How freely does a child, an adult live with limitations? They do not realize their limitations most of the time…. And they walk freely in the world God gave them….teaching us around them…..

Visit : Ivey The Alternative
(picture of Ivey)....little princess.... the most precious girl you'll ever meet....her way of love is rubbing her face on you.... sweet smells.... oh my...


Monday, May 28, 2007

Happy Memorial Day


In honor of Memorial Day, let me introduce to you, two very special people in my life. First, is my dad. He served in the Air Force. As you can see, he is quite handsome and I am mighty proud of him. So I want to take a moment to honor him on this special day for what he did for our country.
I love you Dad.........



Second, is my brother-in-law, keith. Married to my sister (still think he out did himself,-- smile) but I am proud of him as he actually retired from the Air Force after receiving a degree as a Physician Assistant while spending career time.





Not pictured but I would like to honor is my very dear friend, Jeff Purdue. He served in the Vietnam War. He went home to be with the Lord several years ago after a tragic accident. I never want to forget what he did for this country nor do I want to forget him as my friend.

Blessings to all that served our country.



Feeling Blue



I had been feeling blue.... had my son's GI bug yesterday... look for yourself... am I better?


Do you think I'll ever be the same?? I do need to go back to work tomorrow.....


Thanks to Linda over at 2nd cup of coffee for sharing her visit to Candy Land at
www.becomeanmm.com ....

Gosh I can't get over the resemblance this little fat girl and I have...

have a safe holiday day....



Sunday, May 27, 2007

Weekend At Grandpa's








NO GREATER LOVE....GRANDPA..... AND OUR JACK JACK...







Saturday, May 26, 2007

Update On My Son


We spent most of the day yesterday in an Atlanta facility (which is about an hour or so drive from us) at a pediatric specialist having our son worked up from some abnormal exams he recently had. Never did I dream the day would be so eventful!



So here is the scenario, our 11 soon to be 12 year-old, might as well be 20 year-old, pre-pubescent child (that is as tall as me and I am 5'6'') walks into this "place" where these little kids are running around and they put us into this room as you can see above with little cars, a stage that he has long ago passed. I am sure you think oh how sweet, he is just lying there waiting patiently. We'll let me assure that is not the case. I was taking a tongue lashing like no other. "Mom I am not a baby, why am I here?" "Why did they put me in this room." "Mom what are they going to do?" Finally he gives up and just lies there in complete disgust as you can note in this picture. (yes I had to take a picture as my camera was in my purse--"way to go mom," he said)

Eventually the truth comes out....He says "Well she better not look at me, you know... "There".... unless she is "ONE HOT BABE"..... First, I'm thinking where did he learn to talk like that --and then I'm sorry... as a nurse.. as his mom.. I just started snorting in laughter....my compassion went right out the window...Boy, did I get the evil eye....I finally asked him if he wanted me to go get daddy (who was in the lobby with one of Hogans friends that came with us)...

It only gets worse...The door opens and in walks the person alright, and it is "A" female and she asked very personal questions in "baby terms"....every time he looked at me like when we get out of here... I will kill you... I thought this poor boy will be in counseling the remainder of his life....

And yes it gets worse... the all time worse....it was the degrading.... earth shattering... SPECIMEN....AND "mom" needs to help...my son lost it...."NO NO" (right out in the hallway)... "yes, let mom help you PEE PEE (no less, why not some other word) so that we get a good specimen or we might have to do this blah blah blah " neither of us heard the rest..... but I do know that now the entire office now knows that my son has to pee in a cup and I have to go with him... yes, there were small faces terrified looking at their moms wondering if they were next....

In hysteria, I walked in there promising not to look.... He was furious... in the process, we dropped the sterile container in the toilet... "See what you made me do, DON'T LOOK"....

I was sweating when I got out of there....(Sigh, sigh, bigger sigh) And He wouldn''t even talk to me....

Yes, I have damaged one more child.... line them up martha (whoever martha is).... they will all be in counseling....

We did get a first report of everything looked good but we are onto test number 2.... Dear Lord... Dad is going in on this one....

Father, thank you that You have such a sense of humor.....and thank you that our son is good!

Blessings...

DISCLAIMER: with much bribing, I have been allowed to post this by my son...

Friday, May 25, 2007

He Has Been Healed




My Sweet Friend, Al... You have been healed....you are young.. you are like a little boy again. and you are a perfect angel of God...


Al went home today to be with Jesus... received into the precious arms of Jesus... We will miss you, as you taught us all how to live...


I love you......but I will see you again. And we will take care of your bride...but you know that, don't you!

If I might ask my prayer warriors to pray for this family...

Love,

My Book Meme


So here I am running all over the place,, people are tagging me left and right.. too cool.... Ms Shortybear tagged me,,, tag I'm it... so here it goes....

MEME #1
Here's how the literary meme works:
1. Grab the book closest to you
2. Open it to page 161
3. Find the fifth full sentence
4. Post the text of the sentence to your blog
5. Don't search around for the coolest book you have, use the one that is really next to you.
6. Tag five people to do this meme.
OK the first book didn't have 161 pages... so now onto 2nd book.. it's You're Ground For Life by Joey O'Connor....
page 161 says..."Waiting for God isn't easy to do, and sometimes the answer He gives you is just like your folks' "We'll see"

we'll how profound is that!!!! That was meant for me today..blessings.....in the form of a game...

Nise, Laura tag your it....

MEME #2

Yes, I have been tagged... by my sweet friend Nise I think she just wants to see what kind of warped mind I have by checking out my bookcase...
I could have saved you the trouble my dahlin... I'm warped

The Rules Are:Post your responses.
Tag anywhere from 1-5 friends.
Leave comments to let them know they've been tagged.
Come back and leave a comment when your post is up.

Next 5 books on your to be read shelf:
* Sunrise by Karen Kingsbury
* Facing Your Giants by Max Lucado
* Daniel by Beth Moore
* Marley and Me - John Grogan (Nise, me too.. a friend sent it to me to read)
* Rahab by Francine Rivers


Last 4 books you've read:
* Redeeming Love - Francine Rivers (Awesome)
* Found - Karen Kingsbury
* Dear John - Nicholar Sparks
* For Woman Only - SHaunti Feldhahn - great book for woman in relationships or if you might ever be..

Last 3 books you've borrowed (library or friend)
* Dear John (and they made me sign and date it, cool)
* Marley and Me
* Rahab

Last 2 non-fiction books you've read:
* Night - Elie Wiesel
* DNA of Relationships for Couples by Greg Smally and Bob Paul


The 1 book you wish everyone would read
Grace Walk by Steve McVey

I think now I have to tag 5 people.... so you better run... here I come....
Sharon , Maggie, Linda, Dori and Patty (when she gets back)


Have a wonderful Friday

Thursday, May 24, 2007

And I fell Prostrate On My Face






"When I saw Him, I fell at His feet as dead" —(Revelation 1:17)


Someone asked me yesterday (Actually Lisa in our I AM Bible Study-- so she got me to really thinking) how I responded basically once I heard my Abba call my name. I said, "I melt, I cry, I fall prostrate on my face before my Lord." And I can say that I am living passionately in the realms of His love and I hear my name being called audibly piercing through my heart and soul especially this past month. After a long season of silence, wondering what my Abba might be up to, I now know He is speaking to me. I would be less than forthcoming if I didn't mention I was getting anxious at times with the silence….. but I know that is my human side peering its ugly little head.

I may not know exactly what it is He is saying yet, but I know He is there and I hear Him, I see Him everywhere. And all I know to do is fall at His feet in total amazement at the work He is doing in my life. His perfect plan… As it is playing out…. No matter the outcome… It is His….

I also know not to stay at His feet indefinitely, as He reaches down and touches me. "He laid His right hand on me . . ." (
Revelation 1:17 ), so that I do not tarry for too long on the mountain but that I walk back down into the valley where the work is to be done.

Knowing He is walking right along side of me. (Matthew 28:20)

He allowed me time at His feet to replenish my love that only comes from the Father ('God is love' 1Jn 4) that I will pour out to others. He has allowed me to see I must do all things through Him ( 'just as Jesus could only do things He saw His Father do' John 5:19).

As One, we will be a fountain of everlasting refreshment.

For I am yours to do as You wish…

In Him,

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

I AM Bible Study



1. How current is your God? Is he up to date on all your issues or do you have old hurts you still hold behind your back?


He is as current as my every breath. There is a big situation going on in my life right now and depending on how it works out, I hope to be able to share it soon... and I can lay out how God has been preparing the pathway for years.

One of these days, I am going to have to share with you all how God worked in my life to help me walk through forgiveness .. not only with the man that took my friends life but also several other people in my life. Now when someone hurts me or I am just hurt in general I just throw them into the "Forgiveness chair" and move on... so the answer would be "NO" I don't want anything to hold me back or anything to be between my relationship between my Papa because I am harbouring unforgiveness...



2. Has the enemy ever told you there are situations that are 'old news' that are better left stuffed down? Or perhaps because they were so long ago they can't possibly be affecting you now?

Before I went through Grace Ministries and understand my freedom in Christ, all the time. But praise God, not anymore...
John 10:10 clearly states, "The thief came to kill, steal and destroy but I came that you may have the abundant life"


3. In the matter of established authority, does God truly reign in your life? Where are you when He calls your name?

He reigns... period... when I try to take over.... I make a total mess of things... when I hear Him call, I melt, I cry, I fall prostrate on my face before Him.

4. Do you ever feel God has forgotten you in your 'west side of the wilderness'?

I think sometimes God has me in a season of growth and maturity.... take a tree for example.. while a tree is growing, its roots do not have time to stabilize, so then there will be a period where the tree doesn't seem to grow much, this is when the roots are maturing....growing stronger... that is what is sometimes happening in our life...so when things don't seem to be happening, actually there is much going on....

also, I just don't think I could handle full blown activity all the time... dull, quiet, yes... Rest.. yes...

5. Have you ever experienced a time of cleansing where God has illuminated and rejuvenated you? If not, do you find you are in need of this now?

Yes, again when I went through Grace Ministries in 2001-2003, I was completely overhauled... I can't begin to tell you how much work God did in my life.. and continues to do....

If you don't know freedom in Christ and need a jumpstart,,,, I would recommend Grace Walk by Steve McVey

Again, Lisa what an awesome Bible Study... I always get something out of it.... and I can't wait to read the others...


Baby Keylan



Baby Keylan went home to be with Jesus yesterday.

Please pray for his parents and family

Thanks to all my wonderful prayer warriors...



I love you all,

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

We Are One



". . . that they all may be one, as You, Father, are in Me, and I in You; that they also may be one in Us . . ." —(John 17:21)

I have always been known for being an independent little booger. My parents and husband’s words, not mine. As my walk with the Lord has grown, this world that I have known has become increasingly painful at times. Dependence of one's self or being dependent on another (i.e. my Abba) do not go hand in hand. It's like mixing oil and water.

As I have walked the path of my ever growing, every changing sanctification process, praying all the while to grow in His righteousness, subconsciously aware "that I may be one." It would be impossible to remain independent, would it not?

I have fought hard. Just ask anyone. Not easily ready to give up my own self. I have lost love, I have lost loved ones, and yes, I have lost even myself. But just as in a marriage, it will either bring you together or separate you from the love you know. You will find the sweetness of the fruits from this life or watch the brittle limbs break away through the bitterness of our life choices.

One thing for sure, God will never leave us, until we are one with Him.

Monday, May 21, 2007

Join The Dance


(Proverbs 3:5) " Trust in the Lord with all your heart And do not lean on your own understanding."
(Psalm 100) "…enter His gates with thanksgiving….."


Trust in the Lord? Yes, that is what I need to do. After this week, this weekend, I just feel lost. Still holding onto hope for my dad. Praying that all will be well with him. It is just not for me to understand, is it Lord?

And then yesterday, our friend Al and his wife Rita. As we held his hand and told him it was ok to go. Go see our Papa. Go, the Lord is waiting to receive you. Al had always been there to take care of Rita. Walk her to where she needed to go. Meet her every need. And now it was Rita that was walking him home. Walking him home to his Heavenly Father.

Confused. Pain. Grief. Tears. Anguish. And yes, hope.

From The Father's Heart: (Charles Slagle)

Weary One,

When I ask you to sing praises and to delight in Me from your heart, please bear in mind -- I AM not seeking your encouragement. Since when did everlasting strength need encouragement? Or anything else for that matter?

My command to give praise is a love command. I AM inviting you to join The Dance -- The Cosmic Celebration of Joy! There and there alone can learn the Song of Songs. And there only can you also hear the song I have sung over you since you were born.

Enter my courts! Come into them-- with praise! Praise is the gateway to My throne room. So praise, child! Enter in by praise! I AM drawing you into the melody all heaven has been signing since before time began. We have a glorious song to sing, you and I, and the tedious drone of earth-songs will disappear in the splendor of Ours, I assure you.

And when you sing Our song, hurting one, Our hearts will harmonize as one. In the glory of that union all else will harmonize as well. But you must sing the Song of praise if ever you would see.

Your Father………

** Please go to prayer request and read baby keylan as I ask for prayer...


Sunday, May 20, 2007

Prayer Request

Today, I ask for prayer... On my prayer request list I have been praying for a dear friend, Al. They are neighbors to my sister. He and his wife, Rita have been a wonderful vibrant couple.

His very recent diagnosis of cancer has quickly taken over his body.

My prayer is that our precious Lord would receive Al into His arms for Al's final healing. This is surely to take place within hours or maybe days.

Father, be with Al's family and take away all of Al's pain.

Thank you Papa for your promise. The promise of eternity.




Saturday, May 19, 2007

Graduation Day


To my baby nephew.... "TaTa"... oh yes, he'll die if he reads this knowing I called him that...
After all, he's all grown up... graduating today... going into the service to serve our country.. but it does seem like yesterday he was a baby....

Let me present to you William "Taylor" White.... graduating today... and entering a new phase of his life

I am so proud of you..... and I love you

your favorite Aunt... smile




Friday, May 18, 2007

Friday's Feast



Friday’s Feast May 18th

Appetizer
List 3 emotions you experienced this week.

I was overwhelmed with sadness at the news of my dad's illness
I was extremely happy with my son's accomplishments at school on awards day
I am hopeful my dad will do well and God will heal him.

Soup
Name a car you’d love to have.
I have it... it's my four door jeep.... slate blue..

Salad
Describe your typical morning routine.
My husband wakes me up...
He makes the coffee, because it is biblical that the man makes the coffee (He'brews) get it??
I sit and stare at the TV...
then shower and go to work... the rest is a blur

Main Course
Have you ever emailed someone famous? If so, who, and what did you say to them? Did they reply?
well first of all, I use to write Chad Everett all the time.. remember Medical Center.. it isn't all about email... ok... and I did get a form letter back... I thought I had died and gone to heaven

Email? well, I emailed Dr. Phil... no he didn't email me back...
go figure... He obviously didn't realize it was me!!

Dessert
Do you listen to podcasts? If so, which ones?
I don't even know what a podcast is....

yum yum.. another delicious feast.....


Wednesday, May 16, 2007

I Can Do It Myself



John 5:30 "By myself I can do nothing"



When my daughter was very young and learning to tie her shoes, "No momma, I can do it by myself," was her cry as I made my way toward her in attempts to help her. She would twist her tongue and contort her face as she tried for long stretches of time to get her shoes tied. In the beginning, she eventually realized she had made a mess of her shoestrings or was not making any headway, so she looked my way. I could tell that her pride was having its way with her as she was him-hawing around until either I asked if she needed help again; I assumed her frustration would eventually get the best of her thus leading her to seek me. (little baby girl ‘sigh’)


Yes, we as Christians struggle with our own issues, our own life, and our own so-called problems. We will go through seasons or long stretches of time where we make a total mess of our life or the situation at hand. And then as we begin to realize what a catastrophic situation we have created, in which we then take a step back to evaluate. Oh, at first our pride is a major hurdle for us. We sit there thinking we have it all under control and that we really can get ourselves out of this. (Bigger ‘sigh’)

But then as things around us crumble, we kick the dirt, and look around, mostly at the ground. We are in trouble. Now we slowly look up (not to be too obvious), we look toward our Abba. Maybe He will notice that I’m looking His way. Maybe He will ask me if I need help that way I won’t look so bad (the pride monster). After all, I didn’t come running for help.

I stand there waiting, looking. Sometimes, He will. Sometimes, He will actually come running.

And then there are those times that I must move past my pride because that is the lesson in itself.

But one thing for sure, He will always be there. And He will not interfere until we ask Him for His help.

My precious baby girl finally did come over to me ( I chose to wait for her) and sat in my lap and together we learned to tie her shoes in a very short time. She learned by age four and was very proud of her accomplishment. And once she learned that I could teach her, and that she did need my help, the lesson became easy. And on she went to another life experience.

We too can learn from our Papa. We cannot do life on our own as we are not designed to.


If only we crawl up in His lap and watch... listen.... learn....


In Him,

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

Show Me One More Sign God





(Deuteronomy 29:2)"...the massive trials to which you were eyewitnesses, the great signs and miracle-wonders. But God didn't give you an understanding heart or perceptive eyes or attentive ears until right now, this very day."


Oh God, when will you show us a sign… show us that You are real? Are you really real? My life, well I just need to know You are out there…..

And the Red Seas parted………

If You would just reveal something so special to me, show me that You…..

And their clothes did not wear out…..

When will the day come that You…..

And they entered into the Land of Milk and Honey

I wished I could just see You…..

And life was breathed into my first born child, there I held her new life and her tiny hand held my finger and my heart was never the same

Yes, but Father if I could feel what it is like to….

And the gift of a sunrise each morning is a new promise…

Even still where are You when…..

And My husband came along when I had given up on love, and he loved me

Yes, I understand that but what about….

And a precious miracle was born between the love of two, a small little boy with beautiful red hair and his never ending love for God still amazes me, each night as
he says, "Don’t forget our prayers, mom"

But can’t You show me something?

Dear one, I gave you my Son. He walked with you.

Yes….

He died for you….

Yes...

Are we continuing to ask for One more?

One more miracle when we have been given the biggest miracle of all….

For He came to me, to us as the scarlet of redemption and seized our broken hearts.

Look, for the Bridegroom has come and He will come again….



In Him,

Monday, May 14, 2007

The Music of Our Heartstrings



(Isaiah 16:6) "My heartstrings throb like harp strings..., my soul in sympathy…"


Well, I hope you mothers out there had a wonderful Mother's Day. My husband as always makes it a special day for me as the mother of his children. However, I would be dishonest if I didn't mention that the day wasn't completely without its' few emotional tugs here and there.

It appears I still seek my worth and validation through the mothering of my children. How well they worship me would probably be a pretty good indicator of what kind of mom I am, don't you agree? Such a reminder of the precious life I gave these little precious bundle's of joy. Their life light sometimes blinding the reality of whom I really am.

So it's no wonder when things don't go my way, my heartstrings hit a chord out of tune where I then tend to cry out from a place of unworthiness deep from my soul. My needs are not being met. My children cannot meet my ever-parenting call thus I must be a failure as a mom.

It was this morning on my way to work that I realized once again that only my precious Savior can ever meet those needs. Not my children. Not my family. Christ must once and for all be the one--- as He reminds me that I am His and I am worthy. A parent, yes, because I was given that gift long ago.

But only my Savior is to play the music of my heartstrings….

For He is the musician…

In Him,

Sunday, May 13, 2007

I've been tagged



I have been tagged.. Yippeeeeeee...

Lady of Value Well she just felt the need to reveal eight things about me... and you know I am NOT shy... sooooo here we gooooooo... smile......

#1. I played in an accordion festival in Tampa Florida when I was about 12 years old.....where Tom Jones was staying (actually ran into him).... I was scheduled to play a solo that morning. of course, I threw up my breakfast I was so nervous.

#2. I lived near Jackie Gleason, remember him??? if you aren't too young!!

#3. If you remember Dom Delouise,,,, His kids and my sister and I had the same babysitter.... growing up......in Miami.....

#4. I once was chased by a momma duck while trying to return its' baby to the flock.....she bit me in the butt..... no kidding.......

#5. I sing 2nd soprano in our choir.....

#6. I have an airplane named after me....

#7. I have flown an airplane... just ask my dad..... not a pretty story, I might add.......

#8. I still melt when my husband kisses me.....

OK... I'm suppose to tag some of you guys..... so here it goes..... Sharon, Denise, Linda, Patty, Nise , Dori, and Maggie


Being A Mom

I am really just totally sentimental right now..

looking back to when my kids were young... as you can see below in yesterday's post... they have grown a whole lot since this....

Covering my son is his "Mr. Banks" and in my hand I had to remove his "Ditty" a Finish word for well, let's just say pacifier... so that I could get a kiss..


Saturday, May 12, 2007

My Best Mother's Day Gift


My Best Mother's Day Gift...was given to me by my Abba.... (and my husband)
11 years ago it was a small bundle of joy--Hogan: born on August 28, 1995.









and 19 years ago, my little sunshine, my daughter, Chyenne, on August 4, 1987.







I also was given the gift of my stepdaughter Whitney, not pictured but you can visit her blogsite at
Happy Jack's Mom and see my Grandson too.


I have been so blessed.



Happy Mother's Day, to the 5 special mom's in my life. (My mom, my stepmom, my 2 mother-in-law's (I'll tell you this story sometime) and my precious grandmother whom I wrote about this week)


Happy Mother's Day to you all.....