Silent Suffering

Silent Sufferers.....

Are we not all there at times? Our secrets tend to take us to a place of despair and loneliness. For no one else has ever been there?!

It is ours to carry.

In that, we self-loathe. How could God love us? We hide our face from Him.

"To keep me from becoming conceited because of these surpassingly great revelations, there was given me a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me." (2 Corinthians 12:7)

I will tell you that the days become weeks and the weeks became months. I could not come out of my depression. Yes, I knew that I was His. I knew that it was time to rise out of this place of despair. But I couldn't. All the talking would not move me.

My writing dried up for a season. I went through the motions of what had to be done.

I grieved.

I asked God, WHY?

And then, not too long ago, I read this:

it's by Charles Slagle , From The Father's Heart

Recovering Restorer,

Be at Peace. Know you are protected. Yes; you are right. I have allowed a lonely path for you- a path others have assessed from their surface view as an easy one. Never mind. It is Our view that counts, not theirs.

Rejoice! You are specially chosen and hand-picked. I have called you to demonstrated My heart to the hurting generation. The world is weary of words and so am I. Therefore, I AM raising up an army of saviors, and as a leader in that army you have been chosen to demonstrate My saving character to many silent sufferers. For so long I have yearned, through my family, to love into wholeness the broken and wounded. You will exemplify how it is done.

Be at peace about your lack of knowledge. I have purposely foiled your attempts to become a theologian. I need redeemers, not religionists. And why have I allowed you to work in weakness? To carry a burden which has forced you to fall continually upon My grace? I seek deliverers, not destroyers. Restorers, not rejecters. Your own need of mercy has made you a vessel of mercy--a compassionate counselor and life-giver. You know it is true. I have kept you, formed you, withstood you at times, but always upheld you. And I have counted it pure joy!

So you thought you would never be free, did you? Now do you see the purpose of those years of searching? Your seeming lack of solutions? These laid the foundation for your freedom today. Keep giving grace and keeping loving sinners. And stay committed to the good news of My power.

I AM
Father

For our own need of Mercy has made us a vessel of Mercy... to those in Silent Sufferings..


I am where God wants me right now.. I rest in this... Thank you Papa