For His Light Shines In Our Darkest Hour

Did Mother Teresa Doubt Her Religion And God? Yes, She Did

Her journals have been revealed stating, "Such deep longing for God… Repulsed, empty, no faith, no love, no zeal," she said.

As her fame increased, her faith refused to return. Her smile, she said, was a mask. (On a sidebar note: Do I ever know about wearing the mask of life! You know; I’m so happy, see me….. I have life all together…I probably have a mask for every occasion…. What does your mask say about you?)

"What do I labor for?" Mother Teresa asked in one letter. "If there be no God, there can be no soul. If there be no soul then, Jesus, You also are not true.""

These are letters that were kept in the archbishop's house.

"According to her letters, Mother Teresa died with her doubts. She had even stopped praying, she once said.

Maybe her doubts are what made her so real and understandable. In a strange way, her lack of faith is inspiring. She continued to get up each day and do what was right. This, to me, was a testament to her faith.

And then there is John the Baptist. As we read in Matthew 11:3, “Are you the one who is to come, or should we look for another?” How it is that John would interrogate Jesus with such a foolish question? This is the same man that jumped in his mother’s womb at the sound of Jesus’ name and who said, “whose sandals I am not worthy to untie” (Luke 3:16). Yet, he questions whether Jesus was living up to his expectations as a Savior. John had his doubts at this point.

The world is full of people that we consider perfect, ummm how would we say this, worship warriors? (I would have said Mother Teresa or John the Baptist, but the truth is Jesus is the only true Perfect One)--- for even they had their own moments or even a lifetime of disbelief.
What about in the Garden when Jesus asked for the Cup to be removed?

For in the back of our minds, there is that little voice of “What if.” And Jesus knew that amongst a hurting world that there was (is) the part of His Papa’s plan in reconciling the lost. Maybe this is why Jesus said: “Blessed is the man who does not fall away on account of Me.” (Luke 7:23)

Through life’s trials and tribulations, and there will be many, we may doubt, question, cry and scream but we also hope to stay faithful to our Savior. Somewhere in the deepest parts of our soul, we grasp a hold of that last ray of a childhood dream that has forever aspired us with such great optimism. For just as Mother Teresa, John the Baptist, you, me and all of God’s children, we will struggle, as we walk some of the same roads of desperate despair over our crumbled dreams. Seeing the broken shattered memories left behind, brings only tears and heartache to us and unanswered questions remain.

But hopefully, we will take the road that is lit uniquely by the light of the moon as it reflects off the cobblestone layout that replicates it beautifully as well as the Precious light giving us guidance for the path of our future that lies ahead.

For His Light Shines in our darkest hours………

In Him,