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Thursday, July 12, 2007

I AM Lesson 10


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Discussion Questions:
1. Have you ever experienced trials that were best dealt with "in the family" for either your reputation's sake or God's? You may still choose to leave them there, but you are welcome to share if you are comfortable.


* When I was a young girl of 9, I was molested by a family member (not my dad, he reads this and almost stroked the first time he found out). I had lived with that secret for most of my adult life. In that, I carried a great deal of shame and guilt.

I never told my mom because she would not have believed me at that time in her life. But part of me always wanted her to know. I didn't want to tell my dad bec. well you just don't tell your dad these things. It's like he will look at you differently from then on out. It's the whole shame thing.

When I completed my ministry at GMI (Christian Counseling, Inc) in 2003, 48 hours to be exact, God openned more like slammed the door wide open for me to tell my mom what had happened through a similiar experience with another family member.

Then......my mom wept.

The damage had been done, but fortunately I had already walked through forgiveness --- now it was her turn.

2. Have you ever found yourself in a bizarre circumstance and later were able to walk someone through the same/similar situation? Did you recognize the hand of God in it?


Bizarre-- quite an understatement I might say....

But walking others through the same situation, ahhhhh, 2 corinthians 1:3-5, Father of all comfort. so that I may comfort others....

Daily.... yes... in counseling, in life... God has so blessed me in ministering to others by walking along side those that are hurting... I can say, "I know how you feel" because I do.

3. I was in my late twenties before I ever let myself believe God was for me instead of waiting to smack me upside the head everytime I made a mistake. Do you truly believe God is on your side?

I was almost 40, when that ol' measuring stick.... smacked me right upside the head... and I say measuring stick, because I was forever measuring myself to other Christians... instead of following my own path that God had laid out for me... Don't cha' just hate that...smack smack smack...

So no wonder... it sounded like fireworks....

And I looked at God "In the beginning" like I did my parents.. as disciplinarians... not until our relationship grew to where it is did I understand the love, "unconditional" love that it truly is and always will be...

4. If God has ever had you in the Holy Spirit Chokehold (and who hasn't He?), how have you reacted to God's chastisement? Were you bitter? Brokenhearted? Grateful?

Lisa, girl.. I love you... I love this... HOLY SPIRIT CHOKEHOLD.. I have to remember that....I can just envision my feet hanging off the ground at times as I am soooooo hard headed... PRIDE... nah, never....

Not too long ago, God and I wrestled to the ground... well I didn't win...Praise Him...Never for a second was I upset... I thank Him daily.... Why can't I get it...???

5. Write a brief prayer of Thanksgiving for God's longsuffering.

Oh Papa, I praise You in my weakness,
I praise You for the roads I've traveled
for they have brought me to the place
I am today---in Your arms...



13 little hearts from you...:

Cynthia said...

Thank you for visiting my blog. I returned the favor and was truly blessed:) I love your heart for our God. I also plan on joining the Bible Study - Thanks

God Bless you forever!

The Preacher's Wife said...

'And I looked at God "In the beginning" like I did my parents.. as disciplinarians... not until our relationship grew to where it is did I understand the love, "unconditional" love that it truly is and always will be...'

I understand this wholeheartedly... I lived daily feeling I was just a huge disappointment to HIm...Like I hadn't been good enough to pay Him back for all His goodness to me...

Wow, that one is still hard to get over, but I'm a lot better today than those years ago :)

Thanks so much for your insights..you always give me much to think about!

Lisa

Gena said...

Thanks for the comment on my blog. As I read your entry today, I noticed that we had a similar experience. I was molested for a number of years by an older cousin. Yes, what Satan meant to destroy me with, God is using for His good. Isn't that amazing?

I pray that the lightness of God's grace will shine forth when Satan wants to keep you under the heaviness of shame. Shame sneaks up in the most insidious ways, but God is the lifter of our heads. Amen? Amen!

Blessings to you!

Amy Kate said...
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Amy Kate said...

Thank you so much for sharing your story, I identify with you in quite a few of the areas. In regards to your post on my blog "I can't imagine what my life would have been like if I had had your faith at 21..." I have to say that I'm glad you didn't have have the faith that I have at 21 because most of the time (I guess with God all things are possible) you don't just wake up one morning and have this kind of faith. You see my faith now, you don't see that at 21 I've experienced more pain and heartache than some people experience their entire lives. So dont be discouraged about having faith at an older age, I just got some of the hard things in life earlier on..thats not something that anyone wishes for. Thanks again for being so open with your answers, I'm encouraged by them.

A Friend said...

As always, I come away from your blog inspired.

I wonder how many women have shared this experience. I have. It seems that many have. Kind of like when you have a miscarriage, all of the sudden you find out how many other women experienced that same thing. Thank you for your honesty and openess.

God Bless You

Denise said...

Bless your open, honest, and so very precious heart.

Jen said...

Connie I am so sori you were hurt as a child
thank you for being so honest
bless you always

MiPa said...

Your honesty and transparency is a blessing. Thank you for sharing. Bless your week.

Pearls of Wisdom said...

Bless you for being honest . You are so precious and special my friend. We are so much alike . I will tell you my story someday.

Hugs and Love,

Angel ():)

Gretchen said...

That old measuring stick'll getcha every time, right. :) What a great visual! I'm so guilty of comparing even when I'm not trying to compare. We're all only holy with Him. Period. I often make things so much more complicated than they have to be.

Thanks for your brave answers, Connie. I'm so sorry for your loss of innocence. And...I'm so glad the Lord has healed you that you may heal others. Amazing. (((hugs)))

Nise' said...

My heart hurts that there are so many who have experienced childhood molestation (I am one of them) and then have the burden of keeping it a secret out of fear. I was fortunate in that when I told my mom, she believed me and did something about it right away, which helped with the shame issue, but not the trust issues! But God in his mercy has brought such healing! Yep, got that same ole measuring stick over here! I want to break it ONCE and for all and I know with His help, it is possible to do so!

Susanne said...

I just LOVE you Miss Connie!!! Thank you for being so real, and so honest. You have touched me deeply, and I am so glad to be doing this study with you!!!